What is this feeling
Which weighs down my soul so much
Which drowns me in an ocean of despair
My heart turned to stone
Pulls me under and beneath
The vicious waves of the tumultuous sea
This emptiness which suffocates my soul
What is it
The wrath of a storm or a lover’s kiss
Which makes me feel too much at once
Or nothing at all
I yearn for it to just pack its things in a briefcase
And leave
This infinite and omnipresent void
I am its refuge
It’s hiding from something
I am its shield
Joy, hope, dreams were all unscrupulously unfaithful
Deserted me when I begged them to stay
And returned at their will when I had learnt to do without
But this emptiness never left
It had been most loyal
Like a true lover
I wish I could learn to love it back someday
As it has loved me all my life
